If you can imagine it, you can create it. If you can dream it, you can become it. - William Arthur Ward

After long time of sweet moments be with him..

It’s time to admit that I have not improve and I made a failure again..

He does really playful with this, and his birthday wish was to not to talk to me and not to see me..

Idiot, I’m a failure.

Crying and heart crashes and broken..

I get nothing finally..

No value at all.

As a toy or a prostitute.. Generally, eventually will never have value.. Friends did really felt up with me.

All them don’t know why am I doing this for…
To make him more confident with himself.

I’m really tired though.

It’s time to let go. It’s really super hard to do it, but I have to.

Because I love him.

It’s the day which to decide whether to stay or to don’t bother anymore.

Yea, it is such an important day that I ever had, thus, I had never concentrate in class today.

11 of July.

The day to show myself whether am I growth to be woman, or I’m still that lil girl.

The day to stand out show up my sincere an loyalty to him with everything I willing to sacrifice.

I should have prepared the best, expect for the worst situation, ready on how to face it. And face it!

Just on tik tok tik tok.. 12am..
And that will the last day I be foolish.

I’m so nervous now! And I need a friend!

Deep deep breath! Come on Missie!
The very last chance to fight on…

Here another Friday..

At this moment.. I’m waiting him at a saloon located in KLCC.

He having his hair-cut rightnow.

Sitting here making me feels not so comfortable. Since every walked in visitor or customer, the speak well English. Tones like, they are probably a “banana” type of Malaysian or they just had spent some times overseas.

Anyway, just kind of shy and shame that I have not reach that level yet.

Just a moment ago, a pretty woman entered with her man. So wow for Er beautiful legs. I love her muscles so much! The optimal figure that I preferring!

No way blame, here’s KLCC. A high class city mall I maximumly spent 10 days a year here. How rare… Because I’m not that standard yet.

Believe god, we’re always not the best in the world. Perfect thing or human doesn’t exist, but please believe ourself that we would find someone special to make us perfect although that’s merely a dream..

Here I am, in a peaceful Friday noon.

This is what peoples always used to spend their time enjoying.

But it’s my very first peaceful day.

Anyway, I’m satisfied from all those imperfection given by the god, by him.

Recently, I were reading a book.

All the topics more or less were talk about “contentment”..

And now I were fully utilizing all my feelings. 

So hey, peoples, we are not god, but we are god’s child to makes thing feels in our way and others way. 

Happy Friday :)

Since the day nightmare to me..

I’m telling to myself, I want her disappear in my life..

Except the thing I could see..

She just a small kids that like to criticize and find fault from others..

No matter how well your English are.. It will be Z.E.R.O!

Guess what, think about it..

Pointless to cares about what peoples did.. Useless to criticize something that you had done.

Cute girl, I’m not willing to be your friend anymore. I still kept following u, aren’t because I want to be your follower. It’s just to let u know, u are doing what u are criticizing it as a fault.

The personal attack that you created to people..

Sorry to say that.. I’m sad for you..

It’s been so long that I’m not here for a note..

How are the world goes by?

I have a great day after few days fight..

I realized that I might need work harder and gains motivation from any curiosity I have to improve myself.

Thanks for her appear in his life, also left a shadow in my life.

I found that she has become my motivator. She shows me why am I losing, shows him I’m not the best ever..

Yes.. I’m thinking a way for a greater improvement..

But, where could I start from?

Give me some time anyway.. :) everything will be alright :)

我发现，我变现实了，不因任何人，只因我脱离童话故事太久了。忘了意义何在，忘了爱要怎么说出口。

Another sweet night with you..

I’m satisfied..

I missing you, I loving you. I know you can feel.

I will never left you anymore, I will by your side, protect you, hand in for you, whenever you need me..

Sincerely,

Love you Missie